I have beem on my mission for almost 4 months and I have learned so much and made many changes. It's hard to even know where to begin. It is true when they say that your first convert is yourself. When I went into the MTC, it was nothing like I expected it to be. I went in there thinking I was going to learn about the Gospel and Spanish, and I did, but more then anything I learned more about myself. I realized I wasn't patient and that I really lacked Christt like love. That was somethingI had to work on and It is something that I am continually working on. I realized I took a lot of the small things for granted. I learned quickly how to put more trust in my Father in Heaven. When you have no family or friends around, prayer become my life support. I felt God's love and comfort in times when I felt like I couldn't do it anymore. The atonement became so real to me. I know that Christ knows exactly what I am going through. I felt a greater desire to change and be more like my Savior. I have felt the healing power of forgiveness and how inportant it is to forgive others.( Matterw 18:21-22 http://lds.org/scriptures/nt/matt/18?lang=eng) The Lord answers prayers through the scriptures. The Book of Mormon has great power in it. I know that the Lord speaks to us through the scriptures. I find so much peace and comfort when I read the scriptures. The Book of Mormon is true. I have really been trying to learn how the Spirit speaks to me and having enough faith to trust in the Lord and act on those promptings.
All in all, the mission is changing me. It is continuallly molding me into the person I want to become. I am greatful for the blessing to change. I am so glad I don't have to be the person I was before. The gospel changes lifes. I am always amazed by the faith of the people in the California Santa Rosa Mossion that we teach. They so willingly accept the gospel and have such a great desire to do the things that our Heavenly father wants them to do. The Atonement is the " the good news" of this gospel We can always change! These are the things I have learned in the past few months. I have a long way to go and a lot more to learn... I am so excited. I love being a missionary!